(2 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [09 Feb 2004|10:21pm] I haven't really missed this... I've had nothing to talk about, and it's amazing what you can busy yourself with when you're not constantly checking for new friends posts. But I just received the dreaded "your paid account is expiring" email (*cough*) so I don't want my last 10 days to go to waste. It's been an interesting last few days. Remember the episode of Friends where Ross and Monica's grandmother dies, but then not really, but then she dies again? Well, that happened to me. My grandfather called Saturday night to inform us that my uncle was in the hospital, and that he wasn't going to make it through the night. He's a very, very sick man; always has been. Sunday evening we went out to dinner and when we returned, there were 4 missed calls from my grandfather, but no message. (I don't think you're supposed to leave a message informing someone that a relative died.) My dad kept calling back but couldn't get ahold of them, so he assumed my uncle was dead and booked a plane ticket for the funeral. Then my grandfather called back and was like, "Hey, just kidding! He's fine!" But then he called again tonight, and yeah... He's dead. So yeah, Friends. Is this sick and morbid? Probably. Twisted humor is how I deal. Other than that, everything is fine. I think I just got talked into going to MORP (Sadie Hawkins, whatever) with Glen. They'd better let me show up in jeans, cause I'm not buying yet another dress for yet another lameass school dance. Valentine's Day I might go on a double date with Glen, Megan, and Joe out to dinner... They just don't know it yet. My dad and I were working on themes for next year's musical revue, and I mentioned that I wanted to do "Life Upon the Wicked Stage" from Showboat with Kit Kat Girls, and then we decided that EVERY number should have Kit Kat Girls. "Kit Kat Girls time travel through Broadway!!" Texas and Frenchie's Excellent Adventure! School has become surreal for me. It's like I'm not even there. In Relationships Hallie and I fuck around all period and piss our teacher off. Today we had to read personal ads, and then write one for ourselves. (We learn so much in there, I tell you.) After we were done with the assignment (15 minutes into class, mind you) we started writing personal ads for fictional characters. Revenge SHM, 30, ISO 6-fingered man that killed my father. Prepare to die. Ms. Nemeth was not pleased. That class is a joke. Psychology has become a very hard class for me tolerate, since we've been learning about pain perception, and all we've been doing is watching videos about self-mutilation and people who put hooks through their body and hang by them and shit. Very graphic. So there you have it. Bye.

(4 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [05 Feb 2004|06:04pm] Taking a bit of a break. I'll be back. See ya.

(18 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [02 Feb 2004|11:57am] [ music | "My Strongest Suit" Aida ] Do me a favor. Leave a comment if you want to stay on my friends list. Thanks.

(9 little earthquakes | put the damage on) I need a phone calllll... angst! [01 Feb 2004|04:26pm] [ music | "California" Rufus Wainwright ] OH MY GOD ANOTHER UPDATE WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?????? I have yet to leave the computer. Last night my parents and I ordered 70 dollars worth of Indian food with the card that Trish bought us. Mmmmm, 70 dollars worth of Indian food. And then I made flat chocolate chip cookies, cause you KNOW that they're best when they're flat and stuff. Someone should call me on the telephone. I love Taye Diggs. Someone should call me on the telephone. The end.

(4 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [30 Jan 2004|05:54pm] [ music | the news ] Oh man. Today was crazy. CRAZY. We were walking to Chipotle for lunch, and as we approached we saw cops and CSI cars EVERYWHERE. And news reporters, too. Literally all over the place. Blocking the street, crammed in allies, whatever. And Il Vicino, the restaurant next to Chipotle, had police tape around it. So we asked this camera guy what happened, and apparently there was a shooting. An ex-employee walked in, robbed the place, and started firing at employees, but only one was hit. So we go to lunch, come out an hour later, and seriously 20 feet in front of us, they were arresting the shooter. Right in front of us. We all stop and go "Shit, what now? Do we walk AROUND them??" And then we were on the news because he was right next to us. CRAZY. And then Lisa, the transvestite, fell down a flight of stairs back at Palmer and never got back up. The paramedics took her away, and no one ever heard anything else. It's so hard not to laugh all the way through our dance numbers. Oh, and apparently the technical director decided that 32 scene changes is way too many (how could anyone disagree) so instead of doing a few standard sets, we'll have none. NONE. No sets at all. Just us and the black brick background. (Say it 5 times fast.) I kid you not. ASUHASUN2362X34XX28NYa` crazy

(3 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [25 Jan 2004|07:14am] [ music | Rufus Wainwright ] Poll #238369 Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 14 If you could pack up all your crap right this second and leave, would you? View Answers Where would you go? (Assuming money's not an issue.) View Answers Feis today. I couldn't be less prepared. Maybe I'll fall down a flight of stairs and break my ankle. Or maybe I'll have an asthma attack and pass out. I know it's morbid, but I just can't stand it anymore. I'm too much of a pussy to quit. Damn. Oh well, time to go...

(4 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [23 Jan 2004|08:15pm] We FINALLY found out today what roles we have in SA2... Ashley and I are both students in the choir, which is what I wanted to be anyway, so I'm happy. But wait, it gets about 100 times better... We're also VEGAS SHOWGIRLS! Helllllll yes. I am seriously so excited, haha. Other than that, nothing much going on. Competition this weekend, it's going to be absolutely dreadful. I went to the studio after rehearsal, and holy shit do I SUCK. Do I care? No, not really. But dude, VEGAS SHOWGIRLS! And THAT is how Caitlin got her groove back.

(17 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [22 Jan 2004|05:58pm] [ music | "Cigarettes & Chocolate Milk" Rufus Wainwright ] Sorry guys, I'm bored and killing time until ballet... ( LJ friends ) My arm is still sore, ballet is going to suck. AS IS SISTER ACT 2... but we knew that already. Today she made us free style. Now I know why she wrote "lacks groove." Daaaaaaaaaa-yummmmn.

(3 little earthquakes | put the damage on) this bed is on fire with passion and love... [21 Jan 2004|10:34pm] [ music | "Laid" James (I love this song) ] Today was a fairly normal day, but it all went to shit after school. We have a feis this weekend, and I couldn't be any less prepared. I was really depending on tonight's practice to get me ready. As I was putting my shoes on, I did only-God-knows-what to myself, and I pulled a muscle in my back near my shoulder blade. It was so bad that I could not move at all, and I couldn't raise my right arm to more than a 45 degree angle. Every time I tried to dance, the bouncing would make the pain even worse. So I couldn't dance at all. I sat there for 2 hours feeling miserable because I needed to be practicing soooo badly, and I could barely even walk. Then I came home, and discovered that my VCR fucking HATES me, and decided to take the night off. Meaning it didn't tape American Idol. You can laugh all you want, but this seriously upsets me. After a shitty night at dance, I was looking forward to coming home and watching AI. So I was going to watch my Sex and the City tape, but that disappeared. I ended up watching musical numbers from West Side Story and All That Jazz for the rest of the night, because sometimes showtunes are the only things that cheer me up. God I'm sad. I hope we don't have to dance tomorrow at rehearsal. She'll have to change my comment from "lacks groove" to "lacks movement." Ow. So Hedwig girl, previously Haley but now actually Hallie, was at the Tori Amos/Ben Folds concert. She has my permission to be my new best friend. :D Now I get to go write a psych paper on how PMS is a state of mind. Score.

(9 little earthquakes | put the damage on) lacks groove [20 Jan 2004|05:49pm] [ mood | grooveless ] [ music | "no, not now" hot hot heat ] Okay, here's my story. I'm in the show. Hurrah, oh joy, etc. But for some reason, Constant thought it would be a good idea to return our audition sheets to us. On a rating of average, good, or excellent, I got a good for singing. With a large CHORUS written next to it. Ashley got an average on singing with a CHORUS beside it, as well. And pants. Apparently Constant forgot that he cast her as one of the leads two years ago... We are so sad together. :( AND. Under dance on my sheet, the choreographer circled good and excellent, and next to that wrote... lacks groove. ... ... ... Is this the polite way of saying that I'm white? That I belong on Star Search with blonde 12-year-old girls with braces dancing to Hanson? I'm the Jan Brady of Sister Act 2. Someone needs to figure out how to get Caitlin's groove back. Lacks groove.

(6 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [19 Jan 2004|02:06pm] [ music | Elvis Costello ] Hi. I'm looking forward to American Idol tonight, and I'm not ashamed. That is all.

(put the damage on) [18 Jan 2004|11:20pm] [ music | "I Should Tell You" Rent ] I'm supposed to be writing an essay on "What is the verse that Shakespeare contributed to the play of life?" and our essay is supposed to be based on Shakespeare in Love. Which is fiction. Whatever. It's a good thing that this is a 3 day weekend, because I'm really lazy. Friday I got home from the audition, slept until 9, got up to change and take my pill, and went back to sleep. Last night I felt sick and went to lie down around 8:30. I was planning on getting up around 10 to take a shower and start my essay, but then I woke up at 6 this morning and thought, "Well, that didn't happen..." And now it's 11 and I'm exhausted. What's wrong with me? Today was good, though. I went to the mall and managed to purchase a pair of jeans, a pair of shoes, and she pairs of underwear for $15 total. I rock. Then I went and saw Big Fish with Glen. I'm not going to review Big Fish right now, because I usually need awhile to make up my mind about movies like this. Which usually means that I liked it a lot. (I wasn't sure about Hedwig, Moulin Rouge, or Magnolia the first time I saw them, either.) But it was a fun film, and worth the "investment." Then we went to Village Inn for my sister's birthday. She actually picked Village Inn, for some reason. I got her Godspell on DVD for her birthday, and we watched it. The end.

(9 little earthquakes | put the damage on) the chicks'll cream... for grease lightning [16 Jan 2004|08:09pm] [ music | "Climbing Uphill" Last Five Years ] Auditions today were mad dope def craaaaaaazy shit. Wait, no they weren't. I was having a crappy day, and by the end of the day I was irritated with everyone and I had a migraine. I showed up at auditions and Glen tried to cheer me up by doing the Grease Lightning dance while singing Climbing Uphill. We wasted almost an hour practicing the same three songs before we finally got started. The freshmen went first, which took forever because there's soooo many of them. Constant sent the juniors and seniors to learn the audition piece for dance. I was so so SO glad that there were real dance steps in the choreography. I was afraid that we'd be doing a step together clap, step together clap dance like you see at 5th grade choir concerts. I didn't have time to stretch, and we had to do a handstand-type thing while holding the middle splits right into a grand battement, and I hurt myself. We went really fast, and during my audition I forgot almost the whole thing. It was terrible. By the time we went back in to sing, they still weren't on sophomores and we had been there for over 2 hours. By the time I sang, there were only 3 people left to sing and it was almost 6. I had a lot more confidence than last year's disaster, but it still didn't sound very good. Oh well. I'm just glad that I like a lot of the people in the show and that they were there to cheer me up and keep me company. We don't find out until Tuesday... I'm not too worried about it. It's a huge cast, and, believe it or not, there were people who sang worse than me. (Uncontheivable!) Thank God for the weekend. I don't care that a billion little girls will be here for my sister's birthday party tomorrow night, or that I have no idea what I'm going to write my essay on... I'm gonna go see Big Fish with Glen and Amanda on Sunday, so life is swell. "What's cooler than being cool?" is a much more important question than "What's your New Year's Resolution?" ;)

[15 Jan 2004|05:19pm] Today's audition turned out to be... not an audition. We learned a few of the songs, and yeah. Tomorrow we gotta be there until 6, doing singing auditions and dance auditions. Apparently a dance major from NYU is doing our choreography, so SWEET. I was not feeling the whole learn hip-hop from Constant thing. He's going to make me play a man. I can feel it. Only 4 guys showed up at auditions today. DAMN YOU, BOYS! I have a lot more to say, but my increasing hunger is preventing my mind from functioning properly.

cynical town can be tough on an angel... [13 Jan 2004|07:10pm] [ mood | is this real life? ] [ music | "Come With Me" The Wild Party ] Blahhhh, I have a 3.5 GPA for the first semester. I knew I should've taken more honors/AP courses this year. So probably no NHS for Caitlin; that's what I get for being lazy. I went to the Y with Kristen during 6th hour today to work out, and we were the only people there under the age of 35 and under 180 pounds. Now you know where all of the obese men go on their lunch breaks. The clerk at the desk talked me into taking an application, which, knowing me, I won't fill out. I have a new friend in my computer class, apparently. This little deaf sophomore named Jonathon sits next to me, and he's always trying to "talk" to me, which clearly doesn't work. I have a few deaf friends who can talk, but Jonathon clearly can't. Yet he refuses to use his interpreter to talk to me, so instead he makes noises while I smile and nod. Although today, when I wasn't responding correctly to whatever he was saying, he told his interpreter to tell me that he likes being my friend. It's pretty damn funny. I always see him in the halls pimpin' it- putting his arms around random girls and high-fiving these guys who, by the looks on their faces, have never seen this kid before. Whatever, he amuses me. And now I'm not alone in Comp. Apps. I wasted 20 minutes of my evening hiding in my bathroom from the people who had just broken into my house. Those people turned out to be a combination of my cat, my washing machine, and the TV. Your imagination fucks with you when crazy shit is happening in your area.

[12 Jan 2004|08:37pm] [ mood | flirty ] I have so much make-up work to do from when I was sick, so I was planning on a long night of homework. But then, I thought to myself, "OR! I could eat the cupcakes that Hallie made for Orlando Bloom's birthday and watch Save the Last Dance!" So I did. Life is so much brighter when you have a gay friend that will loudly sing songs from Last Five Years in the park with you. Glen, I don't care that you sing off-key and skipped several verses of "Shiksa Goddess"- I still love you. He's taking me to prom this year. And by "he's taking me" I mean I'm taking him because he's not old enough to go without an upperclassman, but he's paying for the tickets and dinner. So all is well. And Nadine bought me a hot necklace. ♥ So, do I watch Sex and the City or do my psychology homework? The answer is oh so obvious...

(1 little earthquake | put the damage on) shake it shake, shake it [11 Jan 2004|03:10pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | "Jet Song" West Side Story ] I was supposed to go see Big Fish with Glen and Whitney, but now I'm not. So here I am, still in my pajamas. I've done precious little this weekend... hockey game with Joe and Megan, revamped my layout, and... that's it. Not going to dance yesterday made my life a little sunnier. Later today Hallie and I might go thrift store shopping (OMG WTF Emily!!) Oh yeah, I forgot about this. Questions and answers from the poll. If you could choose to see in only different shades of one color for the rest of your life, what color would it be? Green. Anything green makes me happy, so there you go. What do you want to do after you graduate high school? What are your dreams? I really wish I could afford to go to college at UCLA, but right now my plan for after graduation is to move to California for a year, get residency, and attend CalState Fullerton. As for a profession, I'd like to either do something related to theatre... or bartend in Los Angeles. I'm very serious. What is your favorite lovescene in any movie/musical/tv show, etc? The prom scene at the end of Queer as Folk season one! Okay, but... I'll go with the reconciliation scene in Moulin Rouge, since I don't like very many cheesy romance movies. :) Did Adam and Eve have bellybuttons? That's the name of some Catholic book, right? Well, I suppose they did... I don't know, I believe in evolution. What's one thing you NEVER want your life to turn out like? I could list a million professions that I don't want, but I guess I just don't want to have any regrets. As long as I'm happy with what I'm doing, who cares what it is I'm doing? What was the best kiss you ever had? Right, rub it in. I've never been kissed. Everyone thinks I'm a lesbian. Or something.

(3 little earthquakes | put the damage on) holler [09 Jan 2004|02:16pm] [ mood | bored ] Stayed home again today, because I was feeling worse last night, and I collapsed in the shower. Huzzah! I'm feeling better now. But mostly bored, and we know what happens when Caitlin combines pills with boredom... ( What, no Mickey Mouse? What kind of a party is this? ) Since I've run out of dress up clothes and Queer as Folk reruns, I'll do another poll. I've seen this done several times, now I steal it. Poll #230961 Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: None, participants: 7 Ask me anything. Use your imagination. I'll post questions and answers later. Supposedly these are supposed to be "deep" questions, but I don't really care. I wish I was in school right now. I'm serious. ETA: The Wedding Singer on Broadway? I'm speechless.

(put the damage on) [08 Jan 2004|11:42am] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | Sex and the City ] Poll #230319 Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 10 What did you do today? View Answers If you could be anywhere or be doing anything right now, what/where would it be? View Answers Say something. View Answers Even though I should be in bed, I'm sitting here, hoping that someone will sign on to AOL. I tend to feel lonely when I'm sick. I could always return all of my mother's phone messages, but I'm not really feeling that right now...

(3 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [07 Jan 2004|08:22pm] [ mood | sick ] Second day back to school, and already I have strep throat. No school for Caitlin tomorrow. I think I finally realized that lately my eating habits have been... Less than healthy. Today at the doctor's office, I almost cried when she wrote down that I was 135 pounds. I spent a good 5 minutes arguing to the nurse that I was NOT 135 pounds, that it was unfair to weigh me fully clothed (dressed appropriately for 30 degree weather, mind you) with shoes on, right after I had lunch. And she gave me a look. That look. That "you are so sad" look. I hate that look. But Jesus, 3 months ago I wouldn't have cared if the scale said I was 140 or 150 or 200 whether or not I was clothed. I don't remember not caring. But maybe I can't blame always being tired and weak on asthma/being sick/ whatever else anymore. I get the feeling this is going to be harder than I think, especially since I'm so sick right now and I never want to eat when I'm ill. I'd forgotten how much I ramble when I'm not feeling well. On another topic, I'm quitting dance after the Denver Oireachtas in November. I am so sick of dance. I don't know why, I just am.

(5 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [06 Jan 2004|07:56pm] [ mood | excited ] JESUS LOVES ME! This is compensation for the fact that Amanda saw Nathan and Matthew in the show over winter break and didn't get me an autograph. The rest of my day was fine. I got an A on my English final, and a 100% on that extended definition essay on dance that I was stressing over. I was going to right about the awkwardness that was 7th period/after school, but I'm so full of theatregeeksqueeeee!!! right now that I don't really care anymore.

(1 little earthquake | put the damage on) I could never rescue you... [02 Jan 2004|11:02pm] [ music | "Why" Tick, Tick...Boom! ] And the Obvious Statement of the Year Award goes to... Feisdancer15: caitlin i have a present for you... lemonutionkate: OMG IS IT SEX? Feisdancer15: i have come to the conclusion that i am gay Oh, David. You poor dumbass. It's snowing here, and I'm hoping that it will stick and dance class will be cancelled tomorrow morning. I've pretty much convinced my mom that we need to spend a weekend in San Francisco this Spring to go look at SF State University... But it probably won't happen, cause I'll probably end up at Fullerton, and I don't want to spend that kind of money looking at colleges and then end up somewhere else. (But I still want to go.) I think everyone should make a phone post of themselves singing... I plan on doing it when I get a hold of Joe's phone. (Actually, I won't, cause I don't sing for people, but you should still do it.) For some reason, I'm going to a gay bar tomorrow night with my mother and a 40 year old (straight) woman with a mullet. .........

(8 little earthquakes | put the damage on) 2003 in photos [01 Jan 2004|08:46pm] [ music | "Let Me Drown" The Wild Party ] I was going to do this earlier, but forgot. Lots of pictures. ( 2003 in review with photos ) I'm actually looking forward to 2004. I will complete what has so far been my easiest (and best) year of high school, start my senior year, turn 17, and, hopefully, learn to chill and be happier and less of a bitch and stuff. Oh yeah, Emily, you can hear the phone post now if you really want to.

(11 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [01 Jan 2004|03:52pm] [ mood | confused ] ( Short hair+porn ) Mmmhmmm. Anyway.

(7 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [01 Jan 2004|02:37pm] New Year's Resolution: No more alcohol. Ever. Seriously. That last phone post is sooooo deleted now. Jesus. I hope those of you who heard it can forget it, haha... I just woke up.

(3 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [25 Dec 2003|10:45pm] [ music | "Baby It's Cold Outside" Liza Minelli & Alan Cumming ] "I can't listen to this song, it's turning me gay! What will my friends say? I'm the metrosexual of the group, dammit!!!" -My Dad It's true, nothing's gayer than Liza+Alan. Wow, I feel really bad for spending so much time online on Christmas. But after we open presents and stuff, there's just really nothing to do until dinner. God, I wish I had been born talented. I've been thinking about that lately. This post has no real purpose, but I needed to take a break from looking for scholarships, ugh. Christmas went well, I think.

(14 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [25 Dec 2003|09:32pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | "Johnny Can't Decide" Tick, Tick...Boom! ] Hi, I'mageekkthxbi. This is a poll to skip over if you're not a fan of musicals... Poll #224889 The musical poll! Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 14 What's your current favorite musical? View Answers What's your all-time favorite musical? View Answers What's your least favorite musical? View Answers What's your favorite musical to sing along with? View Answers What musical have you never been exposed to that everyone else seems to like? View Answers What's your dream role for a musical? View Answers What's your current favorite showtune? View Answers What's your all-time favorite showtune? View Answers I ate way too much at dinner tonight. But I had some very Mike's Hard Cranberry Lemonade... Mmmmm. Alcohol makes everything a little better.

(13 little earthquakes | put the damage on) [25 Dec 2003|02:57pm] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | "Sugar" tick, tick... BOOM! ] Oh man, never again will I let my brother and sister talk me into sleeping in my brother's room with them. His fish tank is so loud, and there were legos and stuffed animals embedded in ever crevasse of my body. But that's what Christmas naps are for. What I got: -Tick, Tick... BOOM! CD -The Wild Party CD -Wig in a Box Charity Album -A super cool digital camera that I loooooove and have already abused, as you will see later in the post -A Gimli action figure, hahahaha. "Santa" requested that I not question this. So I won't. -Cute green purse -A new watch that's too big. :( -A bunch of books... "All His Jazz: The Life and Death of Bob Fosse", "Broadway Musicals- Show by Show," and a book about dancing on Broadway. -A CBGB OMFUG shirt that I've wanted for ages -The Queer as Folk book from my brother. :D -Pirates of the Caribbean and X2 on DVD -Purple and yellow Kangaroo shoes from my sister! -A journal from my grandmother that I'll probably never use... She gives me one for every birthday and Christmas -Comfy pajama pants -A Bettie Page pendant -Money. $$! And there was a bunch of candy in my stocking that I don't need, so I gave it to Miles and Hallie. Except for the chocolate covered cherries. Mmmm. So... I cashed in. Big time. ( Christmas pics ) Is there any doubt in your mind that I'll be posting again soon? No, me neither. 'Til then, I hope you're all having a wonderful Christmas...

(2 little earthquakes | put the damage on) almost Christmas... [24 Dec 2003|11:45pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | "The Life of the Party" The Wild Party ] Nothing puts me in the mood like It's a Wonderful Life. MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I love you all...